Kyen's journey

Senja Di kota Jakarta

2009-05-03T06:56:00.002+08:00

Having just returned from yet another short holiday in Indonesia, a lot of my friends ask whats the hype with Indonesia; as in why I visit the place so pretty often so much so that its my fourth now. Apparently a number of people wouldnt give it a second.

Not too sure if its the food, which happens to be awesome if you know where to get. Traffic's a main headache and one lesson which was hard to learn and even harder to forget!! I mean, having gone thru KL's traffic and complain its a nightmare is like a kid's menu to the Indonesians. Not only the country's far bigger, the amount of traffic was significantly higher too. This is often compounded by the lack of roadside manners and courtesy. Of course, common sense and patience was no where to be found.

Strange though as I encounter them to be extremely polite and courteous while on err... land.. away from the Blue Bird cabs and tuk tuk (yes, they have those there). Which brings me to point of this blog. Why cant Malaysian's be like that? Why can we talk and treat each other with much more warmth and respect? Is it that difficult to smile and be humble while talking to strangers? Do we really owe each other a living so much so that we look more like crooks than customers while we shop?

I would really suggest each Malaysians, to take a trip to Jakarta, and see for themselves for what I believe these cases are not isolated. Imagine even the security guards are so ever helpful and obliging! A smile (a sincere one that is ) breaks the ice and warms the heart ...if only we Malaysians try.

This is it?

2009-03-02T13:46:00.002+08:00

The past few days have been really tough ... though I'm kinda surprised how tall I could still stand. Not too sure how I'm feeling right now, no one (well, at least those who knows) seems to be able to comprehend the emotions and anxiety and shivers that permeates every single movement and breathe of me. Dont blame them as I guess the outer me does mask the turbulence within. I'm an confused myself. Why ...

This life's journey is mine and I guess it's me walking. These pair of sole ...

Trust

2009-02-26T10:17:00.002+08:00

What is trust ... and what constitue trust ...

This matter has been boggling me for the past months ... and am just trying to find a glimmer of light (and hope) for enlightenment...

Another mile ...

2009-02-24T18:12:00.003+08:00

Its been a rather long overdue test that I have always told myself to get it done. God knows why I never had the sanity and enlightement to do it ... or rather the maybe I'd overcomplicated things and never had courage and strength to go through the result.

So today it is. without hesitation, I hauled myself into the unknown ... to find out. It's gonna be a long 3 days.. the longest perhaps.

If only I could ...

2009-02-18T09:52:00.002+08:00

If only I could ... I wished I'm not compared to such a level in the food chain ...

Life's just got better ...

2009-02-16T15:50:00.003+08:00

The long weekend (yes, yet another one for me) has come and past. Approaching it, being THE weekend for any couple who's not on each other's throat... I was kinda sceptical yet in a dilemma. Honestly, all these years, I have never gone through one that was particularly meaningful let alone experience it in a way it was meant to be . So the emo was really high.

Yet this year, as sceptical as I was initially, it actually turned out pretty well. Gone are the yokes of yesterdays and I could just rest, and simply enjoy the company and fullness of being with my baby. Life's shouldn't be complicated. It's not about bells and whistles and whatever that glitters, for me now ... its the very chance to be with you. To hold you tight, to hug you warm and to kiss you passionately. Happy VV day baby prince.

Icook ...

2009-02-12T09:08:00.002+08:00

Yea... hahaha.. sounds like some cheap made-for-ipod gadget from the Weizhuaning-ish province in China, no? Well... no, its just me... on my first attempt at the kitchen.

It must have more than 13 years ... easy to remember coz the last time my finger touched the wok was really the time I burned the midnight oil for the SPM exams.

So with much enthusiam, I headed to Cold Storage (not just any kedai runcit k .. ahem) in Solaris Mont Kiara. Nice supermarket, partly due to the fact that I had a worked for them moons ago but mainly due to the fact the store is cool, neat and easy to move around. less some screaming kids and their equally loud mother, it could well be a perfect place to immerse yourself and let loose and relax as you move from aisle to aisle. Dont ask me how and why, it does for me. So, managed to get quite a number of foodstuff (from what is supposed to be a basic fried rice :p )

Story short ... it didnt turn out to be what I expected (taste wise at least) though I wasnt expecting the moon. But it was after all, it was worth it, didn't take much of my time, nor was it hot, cleaning up was short ... just to see filled tummy and a glee ... from the baby.

Reality ...

2009-02-06T15:57:00.002+08:00

Just one quickie...top 3 on reality.

1. things are always not what it seems.

2. life's a mountain... yea, a tall one somemore

3. life's an energy ... the more you live it, the you feel it.

no wonder i'm no fortune teller.

Got 5 ...

2009-02-05T14:01:00.003+08:00

Facebook turns 5 today... and erm ... so is my blog (well technically not today) . But what the helluva difference these 5 years it has been. No. i'm not talking about how much fine lines have appeared since then but a COOL USD1.5 Billion!!!

That's how much that harvard bugger have made by just having 15 million people like us updating our routine and poking each other everyday... sigh....for me, this IS the best reality show ever. Take that Amazing Race.. and yes... me.

Now ... back to work and stop poking. Every poke probably enlarges his kitty by millions every second! Grr...

Things you learn everyday ...

2009-02-04T10:08:00.003+08:00

Yea... I know its kinda cliche to say it again and again, that life's a journey of discovery. That the more we thought we knew, in actual fact, we dont. At all, period.

Yesterday's conversation, or rather, from what seemed to be just a regular Facebook status update, turns out to be an hour long Google and search operation. (See ... facebooking is good for the mental health after all)

Call me ignorant, but I dont quite care the various words that means the same in English... not that I dont wanna know, oh wel... i'm just plain ignorant then. So there I was, like a kid in a kinddy class ... going thru ox and bulls in the middle of the night. And now I know ... ah ....

Happy Niu Year everyone ... (i know its kinda late...)

February is here ...

2009-02-03T14:07:00.002+08:00

It's the first day of work after CNY ... and my boss has just aptly reminded us that we only have 50 days left before the end of Q1 (so much for a happy first day). Well, at least it sounds like someone is keeping tab of time when the rest of us are still in the year-end party mood. Good boys, keep dreaming, the boss is out with a whip already.

So folks, welcome back to reality. The skies are no longer blue (bit hazy actually now) and the work's piling high. Gambateh.

This is how it should have been...

2009-01-30T13:02:00.004+08:00

Like wow alvin .. for the longest ever, well, for the past 4 years ... this is the first major facelift my blog. Nothing to shout about I guess compared to the massive relay and technology-infused blogs of I-shall-not-mention here but I do get certain kick out of it. Its like getting your first very-own toy from your parents (though most likely it has been handed-down from your evil first-born brother), the sense of euphoria is unimaginably...big; though I could sense no one's impressed with what I did here.

Now, for a person as IT/Web illiterate as I am, this is a major milestone k. Its like going to the moon back in the 50s (yes, i said 50s) or video-calling for your ancestors. Having said that .. I am hopeless in alot of sense and in many ways too...sigh. Here goes

1. I cant cook.

2. I cant sing.

3. I cant draw

4. I cant (officially) play any musical instrument

5. I cant sew

and the list goes on ... wow. The laundry is rather complete now.

another sign of aging ....

2009-01-09T07:24:00.002+08:00

Just another reminder... as the little ones celebrate their birthday. Lil Lorraine is already entering Standard 1 this year yet I could still vividly remember her taking her first step to walk.

Happy birthday baby.

Phew....

2009-01-06T16:55:00.003+08:00

I'm just glad .. for the record. After 3 months of agony and bit of belt thightening, i'm kinda glad that things are turning around again. It's pretty amazing how life can change overnight, or rather just over lunch. Not that I was severely affected by the lack of funds ... just that the festive wasnt that nice if you're on a bit of shoe string and when you have tonnes of wants to fulfill.

Went to my lil pigeon hole in Puchong on Sunday morning, right after a nice dim sum breakfast ( i meant their service, not the good though) with the Pongs to erect the To Let signage. Just within an hour later I received a call to view and .... fast forward to today, I received a confirmation from the new tenant-elect.

Take care of my lil pigeons ya...

Glam

2008-12-26T16:13:00.002+08:00

MBFC World MasterCard launch - No this wasn't part of the launch (phew..) but it was great joy to let down our hair for once. It's the first major car launch for me in MBFC.

Now if only I could one ...

1st Jan 2009

2008-12-23T16:39:00.002+08:00

It's not my birthday ... but I'm gonna 11176 days old on 1st Jan 2009. No resolution in sight though. Just gonna keep counting. Dont ask me why ...

There. Happy New Year. Another decade is taking its bow soon ....

Choice and chances

2008-10-29T13:17:00.005+08:00

Someone told me .. long time ago.

Life's about choices we make, and chances we take... Never really dawn upon me, that these choices are also the chances I took. I dont have a point now. Just a wild random thought that's running through my mind. Something big must definitely be coming my way ...

Alpinia Apartment : For sale

2008-10-28T08:44:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, yes ... my lil apartment is up for sale (again)

RM 105,000.00 (neg)

780 sq ft. 3 bedroom, 2 baths

Alpinia Apartments

Bandar Puteri

Puchong

Ping Alvin @ 012 273 9686 ...

Bloggin vs FB

2008-07-20T10:24:00.003+08:00

Someone commented that I dont blog anymore (ha ha.. strange, not that I really blog anyway!!) Anyway, eversince FB became like the Starbucks of online-social-networking-bla-bla-bla (yea, I still haven't got a clue what it is actually) I guess its yet another god-sent excuse to short-cut. Its like cheating in Body Jam and Rpm classes you see. Makes and keeps you IN without really having to do the dirty work.

But having said that, blogging has become quite a pretty chore and uphill task lately. It's like having to prepare a meal for the entire clan you see (yes, i don't cook!) and worst of all, not everyone would want to stomach that afterall. Waste of time right? =) Having my mind preoccupied with tonnes of utterly rubbish and nonsense does not help it.

So, FB it is... its fast, easy and most of all, we feel that the whole is actually listening and watching, though I doubt how many actually bothers to vet thru the feeds considering the heaps of cam-whores and delusional freaks out there. Still ... you know most of your 'friends' will be shoved your life-story if they just so happen to be most left-out in the FB world.

Of course, i'd love to lament the lack of gadgets and stuffs to help me blog better (Eee PC .. where art thou!) and also being without the obligatory P-world must have SLR camera doesnt help at all. Haih.. excuses ... Oh oh, one more .. and the fact that this blog has remained unchanged for the past 4 years (something that cant be said about the owner) serves pretty little motivation too.

Now.. here's a blog already lo.

Cheerssss.... =)

Back ....

2008-06-19T22:54:00.002+08:00

How do I start... Hmm... again, there's just so many things in my mind. Guess the goold'old me is back. Funny, just about two months ago, I promised myself to turn over new leaf, no more nonsensical and acting according to my whims and fancies. How fast do human forget.

The past weeks have been a bagful-mix of emotions. Sometimes I do wonder how strong I am and yet most of the time I'm pretty hopeless, especially when it comes to relationship; or rather the lack of it. Yea, lack of it is the word.

Succumbing the ideal Utopian of eternal partnership, I tend to hurl myself blindly into a cobweb of disaster, one after another when it doesnt work; or even if it doesnt not work up to speed. Banished to the idea that I could control and chart my own destiny, I'm beginning to succumb to the weights and yoke of not being able fulfill my hearts desire. My mind's easily cooked up and most of the time I could feel myself drifting willingly into oblivion. I feel horrible again, and I'm not talking about swallowing an elephant for dinner but the awful sensation of not knowing what's next, the hopelessness of not being able to determine why am I feeling that way and the sheer emptiness thats cocoons me. Worst still, the depressive aura is all consuming now; not wanting to speak to people easily, shying away from the commonest of routine and dwelling into multiple scenarios that weren't there in the first place. Help ....

Facebook rocks ...

2008-04-25T23:34:00.007+08:00

yes, i'm getting more and more of a facebook addict nowadays, and as everyday know, there's loads of applications ranging from must-haves to those that are utterly rubbish. So more often than not, I don't really pay attention them em' though I'm aware how many buckaroos or karma points they earn me, hey, not that it pays the bills and keeps the boss happy, so yea, i'm not an application-slave. But this came in yesterday and being the forever insecure me, I gave it a try, just about 4 questions to answer and the result ... totally caught me by surprise and blew me away!

It's one of those birthday reading thingie basically ... so here it goes

Your birthday means that you are an early morning person.

You like water and water sports, and your best colors are blue and gray. You are artistic and love to express yourself in many different ways. While you tend to be more of an introverted person, that does not mean you sit at home. On the contrary, you have the best ideas when it comes to going places and finding things to do. You are very innovative and excel at creativity...

wow... how true! man, i never thought internet prediction could get that eerily closed to reality!

2008-04-24T22:45:00.003+08:00

I used to be less than bothered about people's opinion about me, though I had lived thru and experienced one of the greatest moment accorded during my college years. Fast forward to 08, I found myself living thru public scrutiny over my private life and yes, I am bothered.

All these seems trivial I thought, as I was driving home just now. Side track, having to work in downtown kl and living in a suburb, I get to live the infamous life of getting stuck in endless bumper to bumper parade. But these moments can sometimes be my own quiet time, with the radio off and me alone in a sea of strangers. I have reached the defining moment in my life I believe, everything that I have ever dreamed and worked for, is quite within reach now. just that big push ... I am determined then I guess ... these 2 years' gonna be TIME for my ownself and no one else. Say the h**l what you want about me ... I've got my own life to live.

What's up

2008-04-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

It's been about two months now, and almost a month into my new employment...reserve comments about my job till a later date. But now, guess the dusk has more or less settled, heart rate's down and common sense's back. Cant say i'm happy nor am I sad over what that has happened. It was just a one-of-a-kind and never-to-be-repeated chapter of life that l've learned the hard way.

Looking at myself now, guess, being alone has again taken its toll on me. It could also be the new lifestyle that i'm still adjusting too, having to sleep rather early so as to wake up early in the morning. yes, yes, yours truly works in downtown kl. but that aside, the routine has turned into something that's rather bland, staid and well... yea boring. Its kinda deja vu too. But i guess i should be complaining too.. i mean, i kinda wanted this in the first place.

I just bought a book over the weekend. Its called Barack Obama, the audacity of hope. Going back to my good-old reading habit that I often found solace and refuge from. That's why reading about the life and experience of other people is kinda therapeutic; its not being nosy or what, to me its a good short-cut to learn, appreciate and expect, what else could life offer.

On the bright side, things have definitely changed for the better (fingers crossed) over the past two months too. I found myself being able to relax and unwind much better, no thanks to the much needed weekend break that I have now. Maybe to many who has enjoyed weekends all their working life, the two may not mean much but its one helluva god-sent gift. Looking forward, i'm determined to fix the few flaws and bring back the meaning and ways of how I wanna lead my life. Too much have been wasted over the past two years, too many silly and inmature decisions that has caused me much anxiety, hardship and uncertainty. Perhaps I should get down and write it out loud too ... visible goals with achievable and doable means!

hmm.. who am i kidding ha.... well, lets just live one day at a time .. counting my blessings.

Another milestone to pass

2008-03-31T11:29:00.002+08:00

Its the end of March now ... a quarter of the year has come and gone pretty soon.

Tomorrow's yet another milestone come to think about it. Wonder how's the new place gonna be like? Its kinda scary actually, to step into the unknown; with our lifes depending on it. Oh well.. so many questions, so many uncertainties!

Blessed to Give

2008-03-30T20:07:00.008+08:00

I've been to Genting for the umpteenth times but this trip stood out and was really special. Special because it was for the very first time, a birthday present was given to a very dear friend of mine in a form of a trip. A trip which (admittedly) was long overdue for the many of us too; sigh ... time flies so fast when we go on with our own personal stuffs. Personally I was excited, and this goes a long way to show its not the place or material things but the presence and company of great friends that matters most. Maybe its an age thing but I felt really blessed and glad over the last two days. It was truly joyous to rant and rant just about everything and let loose though the place was terribly familiar already. Food was really great (thanks Daryl for your great hospitality) though the same cant be said about accommodation but ok la.

So to Jenny, happy birthday again (yes.. and again, and again!) The trip though short, but was short of nothing! Many more happy returns ...

sorry for the sloppy/blurry photos though!

The grand finale

2008-03-25T21:47:00.008+08:00

Well.. it wasnt that grand after all but just the way I like it. Small but significant. Thanks Jenny/Cash/Joshua for being such a gracious host

a feng-tau host ... and a superb one

turning lobster fast, loads of great white wine

it was indeed a lovely night.. a simple one at its best
as we part, i cant thank you all enough
god bless all

17 years later

2008-03-24T21:20:00.010+08:00

It's been a very very long while since i last took a break ... let alone a holiday! So 22nd March must have been god-sent to say the least. Though nothing to shout about, its one helluva trip as I went with mummy, sis and my niece. Not something that I have done before and a whole lot different from what I did with the CB gangs. Looking back, I've never made any trips with mum before (safe for those schooling days trips) so this trip is definitely one big step, and definitely not the only one.

the trip was to a little town (not that small actually as I found out) in Johor called Batu Pahat; Looking back, the last time I step foot into this town was a good 17 years ago so I had to crack my head trying to figure out how to get there. Yea yea, i know, in these days of GPS, yours truly had to still rely on those horrible vellu-era signboards that points you nowhere. Ne way, these are the highlights...

this bunting caught everyone's attention ... and its not a hoax!!

(i know ... its obscene when grown ups do the peek-a-boo ... don't ask me what they were doing)

(mutated fish that was supposed to bring tidings of luck and wealth should it swims to you.. yea right!!)

Of course, after all said and done, I was really glad to have gone for this little trip with mum. It brings back so much memories and most importantly, reminds me how much I have not done anything for my mum. As we grow, the self in us soon took over, friends seem more important and time seemed not enough. But I guess all it took was just a simple decision that I want to do it...

(noah's ark in progress ... how many men does it take to repair a ship?)

and yes.. a beach holiday (and young coconut water!)

Final dash ... first emo

2008-03-16T08:09:00.002+08:00

I bid my first farewell yesterday to my team in JB. Quite an emo high considering the two JB stores was the first fruit of labour two years ago. Cant believe how fast time flew and I was just wondering how many plates of otak-otak fried rice in Lavender that I had religiously ordered (though it was also religiously the slowest to come out); each and every time I step foot in JB.

It was a pleasing experience too as the familiarity and connection was there with the team, after all, 90% of them were the pioneers of the store; an amazing record in retail. As the day ends, I suddenly realised every step that I took, would be the final bow. Thank you guys for the memories...

Thank you

2008-03-10T21:11:00.002+08:00

Never thought this day would come so I'm actually very relieved now. Just goes to show how important a closure is. Though the day has not been great (I found out that I suffer from migraine .. yea ...), the silver lining was talking to a person that admittedly influenced and changed my life in many ways I've yet to comprehend totally. Looking back, it has been more than a year ... and yea, it feels longer than that too, so it was really a pleasant surprise and .... hmm... i'm still speechless.

If you're reading this, thanks and I appreciate it very much... from the bottom of my heart.

the last laugh

2008-02-29T07:14:00.002+08:00

The dreadful Thursday meeting has just ended (quite an amazing feat that it was just 730pm instead of the public-service rivaling 5-hour ordeal that we had to put up with earlier in the year) when the (half) big gun dropped the bomb shell by announcing her departure as well...I guess I was surprised too but yes! clinch-fist!

it must have been one of the rare best-kept secret in this satellites-infested company too. Dam ... I was supposed to have the last laugh but then I again I'll settle for silver la.

So it confirmed now that I'm leaving come the end of March. When this happens, the clock starts ticking, just that its kinda strange as suddenly I have even more things to do (well.. I'll see if I ever wanted to complete it though...dare)

Strange ...

2008-02-23T10:52:00.004+08:00

Strange .. before CNY I bought a lottery ticket (no, of course I didnt kena), but ever since I kept having this feeling that I have a cool 15 mill in my bank account!!!

Talk about day dreaming man .. this is hallucinating d...

Then again I kinda like ... sends some feel-good factor rushing thru my veins ... but ... reality bites back and my BP machines gave me this reading ...

I do not want to know what the doc gonna say ...

=(

The journey continues ...

2008-02-23T09:51:00.003+08:00

My service in DNP is coming to a close. Looking back, what a ride it has been for the past 2 years. Though it was not entirely pleasant (it was entirely unpleasant to be exact!) ... I could now chin-up and say I have learned and grown in such short span of time. The two years have humbled me no doubt, and exposed me to a few reality of life which I had taken for granted yet along the way, I got to know myself better ... my strengths, my weaknesses ... and my inner self. Of course, there were wonderful moments and I'd say the dramatic change and improvement in my relationship with a few of my colleagues to be it. Not that it was from fiends to friends but a 360 turn. God-knows how that happened but I'm trully grateful. Its something like a lifeline in a sinking quick-sand to me whenever I think of all those s**ts that I have gone through. But then again ... I would have been gone for good if it wasnt for this company 2 years ago ...

Strange ha, that our ownself is a mystery, a dynamic jigsaw of emotions, traits and pride waiting to be tested and experienced. Some say be like a teabag .. for its only through trials and tribulations that we'd search and understand ourself, and hopefully, unleash the best in us. Human survival instinct? Perhaps ... but I guess more often that not, its just pure common sense. I'm humbled by these experiences, though I do not find pleasure in remembering the details but I'd cherish and honour the journey as it unfolds.

To be honest, I'm not really looking forward to the new job...just a professional commitment to move on and do my best. Not that I'm gonna frown but its just me. A professional commitment definitely works better for me...for only then I'd be able to separate my personal life and work. Yea, Donald Trump said that, its nothing personal .. its just business.

Sigh ... I'm gonna miss those discounts!!!

Sayonara ...

Angels brought me here...and kept me

2008-02-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

It's really not very often, that I get a really thoughtful message ... even more thoughtful was the message that it came from a very dear friend of my.

Life has definitely gotten much more challenging as the days go by ... Guess gone are the good old days where one wakes up to sounds of birds chirping and breakfast permeating the air. Not a single moment pass without decisions being made and problems being solved. Am I living my life ... or just merely living.

Pointless post of the week

2008-01-17T08:44:00.000+08:00

I've notice this ... err ... thing ... for quite sometime now and I really couldn't resist taking a picture yesterday. But of course it was done in haste, just couldnt bare the stare and glare from the passer-by who might wonder what on earth was I doing taking a picture of a tree.

But as you can see, its not just a tree. Its a special tree. Heck, at least for once I know there's gender in the flora world as well! Or was it just a coming-out ?

Wonder when will it bear fruit ...

=)

Bandar Nusaputra - Sale/ Rent

2008-01-14T17:43:00.002+08:00

Brand New Unoccupied 2-Storey Link House in Bandar Nusaputra, Puchong

RM 263,000.00

Great accessiblity via LDP, Elite and the new KL-KLIA Highway (soon)

4 Bedroom/ 3 Baths
24-Hours Security in a Gated Environment
Leasehold
Huge Build-Up (more than 1900 sq ft)

For more information, please call
Carolyn 012 329 6733
Alvin 012 273 9686

Rental enquiry are welcome too

Pepper's checking in

2007-12-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hi ....

My name's Pepper i'm three months old now but bet I dont look like one ... yea... that bitch on my left is 3-month-old too! =p ... still ...

this is my lil crate ... dont quite like it but pretty good for a start, well at least it big and has all the room for me stretch ... and scratch... maybe my daddy will get me a princess castle on my birthday ... hint hint ...

At the moment there's nothing much for me to do except play, eat and sleep. Oh yea, entertaining his sister and her pesky lil niece can be really tough too but they do keep me company, especially when he goes to work. Otherwise I'll just mind my own business ... not quite sure why there's green/yellow golf ball beside me most of the time. Then there's another lil elephant, the smallest elephant ever lying beside me everyday. Kinda annoying you know ... no privacy ma.

So there's bit and pieces about me now, there's loads more but hey, what much blogging do you expect a 3-month-old to do right?

Hehe ... waf waf ...

Another milestone finale ...

2007-12-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

Just amazing how times flies ... really, i know its too much a cliche by now and a much sparingly used phrase to use when one wonders and let time passes by his/her life without much being done. But for me i guess this year has been really something and its just to real for it to draw to close soon.

Started January with an almost new leaf, having parted with Vehn after 1.5 years. I wouldnt say it hasn't been wonderful, but the finals were just too painful, up to the point that it pains me no more; but I guess up above, there's a living force whoze mercy was still on me. So there I was, picking up the pieces myself. But i wasnt really alone, in fact, i felt even more blessed to have gone through the storm and to find myself an angel. There's truly a silver lining indeed. Had I not decided to move on, I wouldnt have found the light at the end of my scary tunnel. Thanks sweet for being there with me throughout; giving me hope, helping me to find myself and to make me realise my being here.

Time passes again, I dread as February came and I guess it was really the lowest point of my life this year. Just too many things for this weak shoulder to bear and I guess I almost fell into the deep vacuum of depression. How much and how long could one bear before giving up ... I often ask myself.

But I reckon I came out just fine ... fast forward to December, today, seriously ..... nothing is fine with me now. Its been two unfulfilling years in my career and I cant seem to breakaway, heck, I have not taken a single holiday since May 05 and really, I yearn for one. Gawd ... At the rate things are going, I guess in no time I would have given back almost everything that I have worked and strived for ... sigh ... this is also a year that has seen the most MC taken, the highest blood pressure level and the most frequent headache. Sign of aging has began i guess.

On a much lighter note, i'm really glad that three of my best CB buddies have tied the knot, two of them actually marrying ... well , another two CBs ... Nothing can compare to all of them, who has been my best of pals since the day I started work and its marvelous how much our friendship has flourished and matured throughout these years. Thanks guys, you're the best.

Well... there's actually loads more to whine and rant about but I guess i'm just gonna stop with one last one... to my dearest pal, companion, friend and baby ... not in my wildest dream that I would find you and to have you in my life. As this journey continues ... we shall walk together ... welcome to my life baby.

Blessed Christmas to all ... and a happy new year. 2008, welcome ...

p/s : of course ... to my deared Pepper, love you too!!!

How fragile life is

2007-11-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

Life's definitely full of surprises ... and its just plain amazing how much our life can change and turn at the blink of an eye.

Was just having a nice dinner meal with my friends when I received the call from my brother; nothing unusual safe for the part where he asked me where I was. My bro doesn't do that ... except for emergency cases so I know something is not right. True enough, he was breathing down Kesas at crazy speed with dad completely unconscious in the car. Mum was clutching dad and calling him aloud as they sieve through those aimless nimkampooks. Lesson to those idiots ... next time when cars zooms into view with their hazzards at neck breaking speed ... fuck off, there's life to be saved in there. Looking back, suddenly I felt so selfish and useless as it was just hour earlier that I wanted to leave Curve and go have dinner with my parents. I decided not; maybe because of the chat that I having with another friend .. or its just one of my being-alone moments. Whatever it was, it was really selfish.

It was raining heavily too .. kinda difficult to dash to SJMC in a Kancil but I guess when instinct kicks in .. nothing is impossible. As I got into the car, I could barely hold myself, not knowing what to expect or what to do. Tears just flowed freely ... even now. Suddenly the journey to SJMC seems to difficult and far but I made it there safely. The it became even heavier as I dash into the ER, saw mum and SIL. Mum was visibly shaken with her watery eyes and hands clutching a hankie .. my hearts just dropped seeing that. By then, dad was already in the ER, resting and thankfully has regain conscious .. but still ... Slowly i approached dad and held his hands ... telling him that I'm there. He responded with nod but nothing much else. Guess he was still in daze ... maybe something else. Moments passed, it was just the noises in the ER that filled the room. Softly I told dad that everything's gonna be alright. He will make it ...

Looking into his balding head and his wrinkled head ... It just dawn upon me how much dad has changed and aged, over the years and how much I have neglected his golden years. Guess save for weekends lunch or dinner, I dont really spend much time with him. Things gonna change from now onwards dad. Just as I was in the world of my own, dad asked me to massage his forehead, pretty heavy and dizzy apparently. I did, and it felt so good ... to his head I hope, and most importantly to his heart ... Guess it has been ages since I did this for him. Shame on me.

It was then I knew that he IS alright ...

Love you dad ... I'll be there for you.

I think so lo....

2007-06-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

Pointless question of the day : If you marry your former sister-in-law, would that still be considered incest?

I think so ...

that thing you do

2007-06-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

I;m not sure if everyone would agree with me (ha... in this blog... i think everyone means one/two person, but what the heck) that for some strange reasons, people around us tend to think/believe/assume they know a hell lot about our job... you know, that kind of awww-what-a-nice-job-you-have, or how glamorous and interesting my day is when I myself at times do not know what the heck am i up too. Well, mind you (just in case you're related to my boss) I do know what my job entails and how much of my blood it requires to keep the company going and my sanity to keep the bosses busy. See, I do KNOW.

Its just that I'm often perplexed and tangled when colleagues from other department pops out of now where and demands the ransom of their life time to err... last their lifetime? Neway, for i never. I mean how could I read your dusty/porn-filled/cholesterol-clogged mind when you do not tell me your expectations!?! How about writing in plain english rather ventriloquing your way through your ass-licking cronies ...

there... I'm done for the day.

Deja Vu...

2007-06-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

I took a ride on our public transport today. Yes, I took a Rapid KL bus from Midvalley to KLCC!!!

Hehehe... dont ask me why I did it, but i guess it was just a yen to break out of norm, away from my daily routine and also being terribly sick of getting stuck in KL's endless jam. Some more today is public holiday.

My first thought as I waited at the bus stand was ... How difficult it could be to take a bus? I mean, its not that I have not taken one before, but it was also then that I realised I have not taken one since bus ride cost 90 cents and they're called IntraKota. So that was REALLY REALLY long ago. But heck, what could possibly change, or what's the worse that could happen?!?

Neway, herez the story! Bus came, I boarded, and that was when i realise I have forgotten the golden rule of taking public transport. Be prepared with loose/ exact change!!! Needless to say, I was like a deer (with a RM 50 note) in the middle of a railtrack. Not a single person near to me that has small change! But at last, thank god for this sweet indian lady (who must have thought I'm the biggest living moron who pays for a RM2 bus fee with a RM50 note) who offered to pay on my behalf. I was like, WoW, thank you thank you!!! I would have been kicked out of the bus le. Well, I thought ".....and while you're at the peak of being an angel, how about giving up your seat as well? =)...." kidding, she was really sweet, thanks again.

Ha.... so that was my day, I shall not even talk about the journey home (via LRT + Komuter though) but suffice to say, deja vu can be really scarry yet funny at the same time. Sigh ...

Happy Labour Day

2007-05-01T10:19:00.000+08:00

Haha... funny that its called a Labour Day, at least to me la i guess. Maybe I'd always associate labour with the process of giving birth. Strange. Well, here's a tribute to ye blue/white collared-slaves....may the bosses retire faster, the pantry sugar is always dry and clean, the morning traffic is as clear as a bottle of Evian and the payroll gal pays a few more zero into your account balance.... You wish.

Neway, May 1st, or rather the month of May is here. A month i cherish alot, maybe because its full of milestones for me, in a lot of things that I have done, I could somehow easily trace it to May. Well, this year no different either...I think.

a parting word ..." if I'm a car ... I'd be a classic this month" ....

Milestones

2007-04-09T16:03:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning to a much long awaited piece of the morning news; - the news of two police outriders crashing into someone's bums and kicking the bucket as a result.

While senses tell me that I should feel sorry for them, my memory tells me otherwise, in fact, I was kinda glad that it got featured in tv and in the papers. I'm not sure about others but there has been far too many instances of me getting squeezed, pushed and squeezed to the road shoulders, just because some diarheatic-VVIPs are on their way to the latest hi-tech toilet launch campaign. These sort of outriding antics are nothing short of barbaric and inconsidered; funny, in the sense these are the people we, the tax-payers pay to protect our country, in law and order.

Serves them right!!!

Happy CNY

2007-02-20T13:02:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY guys ... Gong Xi Fa Chai

Just updates ...

2007-01-21T10:02:00.000+08:00

Yay.... this blog has just gotten a lil bit more interesting....oh well I lied, its just gonna be nothing but updates for now! (oh well, I still dont know how to change the colour of this page ... darn)

Sigh ... its already mid January now, so many things have happened just over the past weeks (the past months more accurate), Christmas and the NY came and past just like a passing wind, I'm still busy with work, friends are still lepaking in mamaks till the wee hours in the morning... True enough, the festive is often a period where I kinda lost control of myself momentarily; especially in the sometimes-hot-sometimes-cold part of working out. Without realising, it has been more than a month since I last stepped into gym so yesterday's work out was kinda strange, those little dumbells seemed to have put on weights too!

Job wise has been pretty mundane in the sense that I do really nothing but opening new stores; one after another. So therez isnt much to rant about.

The days seem longer ...

2006-12-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

A guy just irritated me today ... dont you just hate people who waits in front of the elevator just dont have the patience and courtesy to let people get out of the it in the first place?

Neway ... thats not the point, god-knows how that tagged along since I got out of pyramid today. Just like to thrash out something, a phrase and a feeling that has been bugging me lately and truely/literally, the days seem longer...i just cant sleep at least until 2am; something which I have managed to kill quite some time ago but i guess it relapse again. No I dont think I have reached to insomniac stage (yet) but close I guess.

crazee...

Farewell 2006 ... farewell indeed

2006-12-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

How should I start ...

What a year it has been really. I mean everyone would indeed atest that the days seem shorter and the hours zoom by like there's no tomorrow? Which is so strange, everytime I look at the clock, I bet its still turning like what it did hundreds of years ago, so why is it that time flies nowadays? Did anyone realise that not only good time flies, bad times flies as well ... which means no good as we get inaundated with more problems and stress ...

as I pen this ... its already the second day of 2007 and 2006 was just like yesterday ... all 365 days of it. For the second time in my life, I ended the year on a really bad note, by choosing to part with my life's precious and loved one. Not so much of wanting to start the new year afresh, but enough is enough already ... friends often tell me that I deserve to live my life much better than I did in 06 ... I couldnt agree more, though it was full of sweet and bitter memories.

Like I said in my last year's post .. 2007 will mark another chapter of my life; a generation has gone and a new one starting. Gladly, I ended the year knowing that I have been blessed with great friends, old and new. To all of you...I bet you know who you are. My apologies for my shortcomings, for not being the friend that I really wanted to be and hope in one humble way or another, I have brought cheers to your lifes.

To my family members too ... I have got even closer to my beloved sister, through her predicament this year, we have grown stronger to support and care for each other. I will ALWAYS be on your side sis. Thats my will. And to my bro ... congrats and welcome Jessice in our household, may I offer you my prayers and love to this brand new family. Last but not least, mum and dad, you guys are the greatest for I could not help but notice and realise how much your upbringing has provided me with the best that I could use in my life; love.

cheers all.

Blessed Christmas

2006-12-24T09:55:00.000+08:00

People often ask and wished for the world (normally silently) and or for the simplest ones (will do, for those with no bargaining power...) but as for me ... I got mine in a very very different manner. =)

I got sms!!!! Yes ... not one of those that one will get terribly excited at but getting this from a new found friend IS something that really touched my hear ... and it goes ... "A silver lining to every cloud..." and tonnes of encouragement lately. How powerful it is to hear words. I guess being reminded of this phrase has brought new meaning and injected a brand new zest into me lately ... the past months have been less than motivating and painful so I am so ever grateful for this to be happening now. Thanks sweet.

and to all my friends ... Blessed Christmas and have a great holiday!!!

Love
Alvin

You are so dead ...

2006-12-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

Getting stranded is not something I'm used to, and not something that I react very well ... having been through a couple of incidences with my friends. Fortunately, through my years of personal ownership of a car, I have not been disappointed by my babies ... yes, Proton included and surprisingly my Xsara behaved herself so well over the 4 years. But what was tremendously surprisingly (which adds salt to the wound) was my Vios today and all my so-called positive perception for Toyota just flung out of the window and is as dead as the immobiliser now. What was even more appalling what the judgemental attitude of the call centre person. Hello, people dont switch their headlamps on at 3pm! If there's something f**king wrong with the things you guys made ... admit it!

Anyway, I'm just hold my horses now ... the dust have not settled and my baby is being hospitalised tonight. I definitely want to know from head to toe tomorrow morning. A 3-week old baby does not DESERVE to be treated like this ...!

Selina and Yean's wedding

2006-12-17T22:14:00.001+08:00

The wait is finally over ... to Selina and Yean, congratulations and many many happy returns!!!

It was indeed one of the most beautiful wedding and considering that this was much a DIY-planned effort; it could well be the most memorable one. Memorable too is that fact that at least for me, this is first time my gym gang and I have ever been sitted in a formal setting (though that cant be said of our behaviour... but suffice to say, we were behaving ourself) and how this has set some of us in a frantic scramble to get ourself the perfect outfit for the night. Well, yours truly was especialy bad ... which goes to show how much I have slacked when it comes to having formal wear... too much topman adi la.

The wedding went pretty well ... started quite on time (a feat for a chinese wedding) and soon the 7 courses started rolling out like a well-round clock. Talking bout the food, it was really good too!! But what really caught my attention was the unity, the bond and love that was very evident in the couple's family and of course, the love between Selina and Yean's. Poor, Yean, your mouth must be numb by now eh ... guess you have not stopped smiling since day one. How touching!!!

Yam seng Selina and Yean!

Sharper than knife

2006-12-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

I'm surprised I'm still here ... it came piercing through, sharper than knife when I least expected. No one in his sane mind would believe it but strangely I did .. or dont I. I dont know.

Life's seemed terribly cruel lately, the person whom you have poured your all into ... suddenly seemed so indifferent and selfish. Is there any meaning left in this relationship? Am I alone in this relationship?

.....just so lonely ....

Signs of time

2006-12-07T07:54:00.000+08:00

Time : 6:43am

I am awake ... pretty strange. Ever since the trip to Penang, I've been waking up at such ungodly hour and not being able to slumber again. Which is fine whilst in Penang as the work was slightly different. But not in KL?!? Its not that I have to drive all the way to Bukit Beruntung or Balakong to punch in.

Maybe there's just too many stuffs in my mind nowadays, just too mentally tiring. Too many issues to dwell into, some I guess its worth the while, some not, some not sure and some definitely going into the KIV. Heck. Of course, one which is precious to me but somehow lately (correction ... ever since mid this year) things and priority have changed so much. Just way too much that I woke up today deciding that I'm gonna stop 'dancing' alone in this musical charade,to wait at the sideline and see how things go. dont think I'm gonna give up but I guess its just me testing my limits. Takes two to tango. How true.

Oh well, I have digressed so much. Actually just wanted to say that I finally did something I have not done over the past 4 years .... I washed my cars! Ha... technically still correct ma that I have two cars. What to say ... hmm... feels good, apart from the brief work-out that I get but i guess its the satisfaction from doing something for the things I love. Found some scratches though =(

Good to catch up ...

2006-12-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we just don't realise what we have lost until we err... found it? hmm... not really making sense but this is really what I felt after having bumped into my former colleagues in penang. Its kinda strange as its not that we have not seen each other for ages, for it was just barely a year ago. But I guess my short stint with you-know-where last year did really leave a mark in me in terms of the friends that I have found.

It just felt so natural and part of me came back. Thanks gal for making my day. Just too bad we had to ensure that horrendous jam back to Gurney ... Traffic reports brings new enlightement in Penang, trust me.

Welcome WPQ 9866 and goodbye WJQ 1087

2006-12-05T01:16:00.000+08:00

all right guys, you can uncross your fingers now ... oh well, it's actually for my new baby. So here it is in full metal and plastics (therez loads of it in it).

Of course, with much sadness and reluctance, I have to bid farewell to my baby for the past 4 years .. my beloved Xsara. Thanks for all the memories and experience you have brought for me throughout these years. Having you was a testimony that dreams do come true if I put my heart into it and I will vividly remember the day you came into my life, and now we part ...

From the land of char kuey teow

2006-11-24T08:51:00.000+08:00

This is what I like about Penang ... the food! It's only my 2nd day here and my char kuey teow count has reached 3 plates. Nevermind the potential cholestrol and how pig-fat soaked it is but I've not been here for quite some time! Oh my ... think my only itinerary here is whats the next ckt ...

First ony my list now is this auntie frying near sunway hotel. Its quite a pretty busy and popular hawker centre too. Just try to pardon the un-malaysian courtesy and almost astronomical price of 4.50 and you'll get to try the real thing. Too bad though my plate was prepared by her daughter (i think) and not her (the black shirt one). She doesnt look the part of a skilled and talented ckt frier ... i mean you'd to look a the way she stood, with her eyes straing into eternity. NOt sure she knows what stuffs she puts into the wok. Sigh ... Neway, I was quite impressed with the upgrade they have done to their stall.. it just to be one little stall hooked to a tri-cycle and torn shades. But now, it comes with two frying stations, suction hoods and hi-tech chimeys! Heck therez even explandable stainless stell work station!

to be continued ...

Fingers crossed

2006-11-17T01:23:00.000+08:00

Everyone .... help me by keeping your fingers crossed please. Got la, for something good.

and yea... anyone out there has got this song by Nitrus, darn Shareaza is sleeping all the time.

Sign that your life is pathetic!!!

2006-11-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

Oh well... here am I leaving for Penang on a last-minute business matter. And here am I thinking that I'm actually going for a holiday ... oh my. Someone slap me please.

Hate being alone

2006-10-31T23:51:00.000+08:00

Oh boy ...you'll know how evil it is to pass time when you're alone at home, not knowing what to do. Think I've just browsed through the fridge so much that I could remember how many ice cubes are there. sigh... no thanks to streamyx too.

Oh well, tomorrow's another big day, another milestone I hope but not putting too much faith into it. Just getting sick of thinking too much into the lines. So am just gonna let things be. No more over confidence and tall dreams ... not now. Sigh, could this well be a sign of time or sign of things to come? Guess i'm finally feeling the full force of this so-called quarter life crisis. Strange, but i seriously do not what it is all about actually. Its just that all these strange feeling about life, what have I accomplished, who am I, what I should be, what do I stand for etcc... and many more.

need life .....

Back again ...

2006-10-29T17:15:00.000+08:00

OMG, how long have I not blogged!?! Arrghh .. blame me not la, streamyx has been down for god knows how long (definitely longer than how much the LRT coach dangled from its wits end!... having said that, I found it 'strange' that it totally kaput-ed over the long Deeparaya holidays ... ) So this long overdue post might just be abit strange and hard to understand, bit polishing needed so hang on ya!

Alrite, so where do I start? Oh ok, my Nusaputra house. It's kinda firmed that I'm selling it and yes, its a brand-new VIRGIN house! More info coming in next saturday when i'll be receiving keys to her .... finally. stay tune!

and to Christy, Congratulations and all the best for your promotion and moving on to Jakarta. The CB gang is proud of you and yes, we will be coming to Jakarta in a group not individually! -)

as for me ... erm ... nothing much bout me. Life's been quite hectic lately with all the new boutiques scheduled for opening back to back. My only consolations so far is the 1-week trip to Penang next month, so am gonna have loads of chance to savour those yummy penang food!

oh well...

Here you go baby ...

2006-10-15T10:17:00.000+08:00

Everyone would probably be very familiar with this house that I own but I dont stay .... =), strange but true that I still like my lil' storeroom in USJ so much!

Oh well, the waiting is finally over ... but then again this key handover wouldnt be much of an exitement la. FOR this is house is up for SALE.

So help pass the word around will ya ... ping me if anyone's is interested in this township. Its in Bandar Nusaputra, PUCHONG. Going for RM245k.

MOF - We want answer ...

2006-09-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

I was reading the papers today when i notice this huge headlines in the business section,

Oil price takes a tumble

PETALING JAYA: From a record high of US$78.40 per barrel in early August, oil price has since taken a substantial tumble to hover around the current level of US$62, after dipping to about US$60 on Wednesday.
In mid-February, the oil price was less than US$58 per barrel, but it then gradually moved upward, culminating in a record high last month.

Having read every inch of the write-up, naturally I was looking for another piece of goodie but what was (expectedly) missing was the usual add-on if the price is shooting the wrong way up. Yes, I'm wondering why therez no immediate price CUT in fuel prices - answer that MOF!!!

I believe you owe the rakyat an answer rather than cowardly advertising in petrol stations how much fuel in Malaysia is subsidised. Why keep quite when it has been dropping so much over the past week. Do you realise that even a 5 cents drop in price could buy us commoners loads more things that you could ever imagine.

like this perhaps ....

My new hp!

2006-09-17T20:52:00.000+08:00

Come to think about it I have been quite consistent when it comes to changing phones; or rather the phones that I have owned have never failed to fail on its 2nd year of ownership!

So here am I, 8 years on with my newest baby, nothing terribly fancy but one which I like and have been eyeeing for quite some time ever since my Nokia began to throw tantrums every now and then(yes, the two of you can finally breathe...).

and of course. my the main highlight of the week was my mum's 69th birthday celebration. Being at this milestone, it was customry to celebrate it as the 70th birthday but mum, you dont look abit 70!!! So looking forward to next year ... promise that it's gonna be a bang! Love you!

(take photo quick la, ppl still wanna eat le)

Pillow talk

2006-09-03T17:43:00.000+08:00

yes, me finally went shopping so no, this is not some juicy-spicy bits about celebrities ... but about something I bought today =)

you see, i've got myself yet another .... drum roll ... a pair of new pillows!! What so big deal eh?

Of course it is, first of all, it was a buy-1-free-1 deal (ha, that explains the pair of pair pillows)! =p. thanks sis! Second; coz this brings my pillow count to 5 types+7 pieces. Add that to a quilt on my meagre single hand-me-down bed and I'm actually starved of space to lay myself (dont even bother of getting laid then...wtf)

but thats not the point. Thw point is its about me being a such a sucker for pillows, that I not only expect a pillow to be a ...er... pillow but to be the PERFECT companion AND that it should also be able a lumbar support, a bolster, a beanie and to add life to the room! phew ...

but why do i diversify my pillows so much that they could well form an organisation to run our public service (ouch)? I guess its about me not being to find the perfect pillow for my laden head. Grrr...after all these years, god-knows how many pillows (and how many buckaroos) have I thrown out of the window for not meeting one simpe expection of mine ... performance on the bed! =)

Ok, before you get funny ideas, I just want my pillow to just nicely elevate myself when i'm lying; providing a good balance between softness and firmess for a good night rest and not waking up to a super stiff neck! Easy isnt it? then how come its so difficult to get the perfect pillow!?! Heck, even my so-claimed genuine 60/40 goose down feather pillow has failed me for countless of times (pity those ducks)

i guess this is one fine line to toe, probably akin to getting the right balance between road handling and ride comfort. so this is story of how my fellow pillows got relegated to its role now ... sigh ... how come OSIM doesnt come up with pillows?

Why I dont blog ...

2006-09-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

Oh well, i'm pathetic. I guess give me a few more months there should be tonnes of mushrooms sprouting on my blog and would probably land myself with a bloggers' citation for hogging the web spheres =)

For a start, therez hardly anything flowing though my mind lately; not even my usual updates of stuffs I eat, let alone anything juicier. Ha, just in case you're wondering, I do eat!

and on a cynical side ... no I have not gone on any holidays nor have I gone ga-ga with the merdeka jam. =)

so its just me with stuffs which I kinda enjoy doing ... the usual routine of going to the gym after work, wonders what to glut about, kay-poh around people's blog and being with the people I enjoy and love to be. I guess this is just a normal phase in life, which I tend to see more and more! being a bit more laid back, taking things slightly differently and live life.

back..

2006-08-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

Oh well.. i'm back (by a single vote of confidence =>, gosh bloggers are so demanding nowadays! ). Not that I've been away meditating in the himalayans, just that its not been a great week and not many chances to get on the web ...

So what have I up to ... erm, let's see

1. Stoopitdawg's exam is over, so that explains my awol most of the time ... hehehe ...
2. a weekend in genting with my family (no, I DIDN'T go to Jim Brickman's concert but i did got myself FLAGGED by the casino security!!! wa... summore have to tunjuk teng-ki!!!)
3. Finally got my car washed ... it was already turning white (and mine's a blue)
4. still very upset with my missing beloved-Nike gym bag ... where are you!!!
5. got LOADS of Topman stuffs :- a pair of jeans (str8 cut somemore .. dont pray pray!), shirt, belts, winter jacket (yeah, got that too... dont ask me why), cardigan, tie, leather purse (for mummy)

and finally ... a mailto:*$@X!& saman from MPPJ for meletak kenderaan di bahu jalan/ kawasan simpanan (mother &^%$X)

cheers!

Ave Maria ...

2006-07-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

my duty for the day ...

the first sign of 'tying the knot' ... pity the car (yes... =( its not an Audi A4)

chinese wedding can get pretty thristy ...

this piece of plastic is MORE expensive than my CAR !!!

loads of sunflower ... everywhere ...

more tags than MPPJ's billboards

and presenting ... the new us !

welcome on board jessica

(4)D-day

2006-07-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes, ur day just wont go right coz some bozos would just love to get to know you better

"dear ... i think you've just park your lorry a vee bit too close la"

not happy

and being a typical chinese, we handled the situation well, very well in fact that we knew how to bounce back and get on our feet, so we did the RIGHT THING ...

so we punted !!! (well duh, of coz its the right thing, sitting in the police station on a saturday evening with screaming children and a faulty air conditioning is NOT!!!)

alas, as though the day was not dramatic enough for the heart, fate has it that we have to wake up and find our beloved number coming in 3rd prize

but IN COMPLETE MESSED UP COMBINATION!!! 9130?!! knnccb betul ...

how evil!!! we were supposed to have dim sum breakfast in melbourne this friday

arrrghh...

p/s : if you could read this, you'd probably noticed that I bought the wrong number in the first place ... =)

Shame on you MPs

2006-07-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

What an utter embarassment!!! If any of you were 'unlucky' enough to catch today's nite headlines; your jaws would have drop lower than your ankles hearing those unbelievably childish remarks from our so-called elected Members of Parliament bashing Now-Everyone-Can-Fly.

If this is representative of the level of mentality of those whom we elected, I'll be dammed and shudder at the thoughts that these miniscule amoebas are running our country.

If you cant get a 0.99 ticket deal (without those annoying asterixs haloing above the price) just because you cant make up your freaking mind or probably your freaking mind is on its 10th teh-tarik break of the day, then do not blame the system for deprieving you of dirt cheap tickets.

Heck, you scums would have probably never log-into the net in the first place, know what a mouse is, let alone know what it takes to get such good deals. How it is then, that you bugs have elephant balls and the nerve to stand before the nation and babble as if it was a bloody morning wet market rant of being 0.10 overcharged for the price of a cabbage.

Wake up. If your rakyat have never felt cheated just because they are more discerning and intellectually better equipped to make an informed decision than you, then do not pretend just because you have a different salutation in front of your name that you could decide on behalf of us. The system works for Everyone-CAn-Fly because there are solid brain cells toiling the midnight oil to get to where they are right now and it succeeds because they deserve it.

We are not impressed nor awed at all but your indespicable antics for political mileage, so shut up. The sewerage ponds have loads of space to accommodate your bull shits ...

there.

My precious ...

2006-07-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

just have to burn another 100 buckaroo on my car today, sigh, its been throwing loads of tantrums of late this year; something which I had feared last year when I was trying to dispose it..

but strangely, the more I get irritated with its whims and fancies, the more I miss it and the more I know how strangely bonded I am to this car. Maybe after all, this car has been with me since the begining; and when I say beginning it means the moment I knew I shall be heading into white-collar slavery soon. Can still vividly remember it was way back in 1997; at the dawn of the economic crisis when Citroen launched it here in Malaysia. I was immediately hooked. Soon it became my pledge and commitment; to get this car by hook or by crook.. crazy ha.

Well, as crazy as it sounds, it did became a motivation and a carrot for me. Not to mention the numerous cool WRC victories and throphies that it has picked up along the years...

It was quite unbelievable that I could actually force myself to SAVE little by little for this car. Years pass, I graduated, got my first job, got my first car (yes... kereta nasional la, what else), got my second job and finally on January 4th 2003, I made the decision to reward myself with this long-time dream of mine. =) of course, there were loads of unfounded excuses I made to convince the inner me that I really wanted and NEEDED this car.

So here am I, 3 years later, having a very fond memories of my precious Xsara. It has taken me places, countless holidays and occasions, jobs and of course summons; not to mention a few 1st-time as well. *GRIN*.

It has been sweet and I shall take care of it for as long as possible. Promise. =)

Hmm....

2006-07-09T23:11:00.000+08:00

Out of curiousity, I tried this internet-based test eventhough I have always been a skeptic when it comes to personality test, let alone being influenced by it. Years ago, I underwent one as a prerequisite for a job interview, I came out as a peacock ... yes, I didnt get the job.

This time around, nothing has changed, just that I'm bit down lately, so decided to just try it out, who knows ... the peacock has become a phoenix le ...

and the results ....

You have Type-A personality

You are one of the most balanced people around

Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you wantYou rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.
When it's playtime, you really know how to kick backWhether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds!

hmm..how come I'm still not a millionaire???

Do you have Type-A personality?

I'm happy ...

2006-07-08T13:53:00.000+08:00

I pulled into Caltex to fill up yesterday and THIS ... is going beyond expectations.

caltex station guy : encik (yes, people call me by this salutation nowadays) nak cuci cermin?
me : yes please ... thanks
*continue to fill up my tank*

caltex station guy : cermin tepi?
me : ha? tepi? (with a sinister face) ... er.. boleh jugak ..
*gas still filling up ... full tank ma*

caltex station guy : ok siap ..
me : ok, thank you bang.
* gas filled up as well at the same time*

it was only after returning to my car after washing my hands that I notice him squating beside my car and ... tahdah!!!

... bet you didnt expect what he is doing! my gawd, perhaps if i were to give him a bit more time, my car would be gleaming and shining too!

i'm going back to this station!

ok now this is annoying

2006-07-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

its not that very often that one gets his mug face on a magazine, so when its time, naturally therez this lil adrenaline rush to take a quick peek, no matter how small or how out of focuz [they dont, do they? =) ] the pic turned out to be.

ha, in my case, the rush was taken on abit of overdrive; ie its been quite a darn week trying to sniff my pic out of cleo magazine's june edition. howz that possible tat my friends could stumble upon it so easily and here am I still not being able to locate it?

OK,
Bimbo question #1, just call ur friend to find out which page la.
Bimbo answer #1 from friend : ..."err... forgot also.." FINE.

someone out there, if you have seen it, stuff it into a glass bottle, cast it into the seven seas k. I'll swim to get it.

there.

2006-07-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Dad!!!

on this special day, I offer my salute

for guiding me and making me

who I am today

I cherish your love

the freedom you have given

the respect and support

no other wish

nor dreams

that I seek

than just to call you dad

you have given your all

we may not have all

but together

we have each other

you thought me love

integrity

and commitment

I pray

as your journey continues

that you will be healthy and joyful

that you will be loved

by all

Mummy, Mike & Carmen, Carol & Andy, KYew & Jessica

Vanessa, Tasha, Lorraine

and me

wishes you

Happy Birthday Dad/Grandpa ..

you are the greatest.

love

Fashion violation 2?

2006-07-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you just wouldnt know or expect to burst into laughter at the most unlikely place. So there was I walking into one of my boutique's reservation corner; to find this ticket staring directly into my path of vision ( and then to come home to read Kenfresh's post ... lol, nothing terribly connected, but hey, me in fashion business ma ... VIOLATION TO THE MAX TODAY!)

"MISS" you kenny!!! =)

I survived the ordeal

2006-06-25T17:48:00.000+08:00

Confused here ...

here ...

and here too...

I'm pathetic when it comes to taking public transport. PERIOD.

"lucky therez a family Guy, lucky therez a family guy...." to keep me companied ...phew.

sometimes I wonder why I read newspaper ...

2006-06-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

KUALA LUMPUR:
Ask any couple if the hardness of a male erection matters when it comes to sexual satisfaction and the answer you will get is very likely to be “yes”.

This was the most common response globally from the Pfizer Global Better Sex Survey (GBSs).
The survey was conducted through interviews with 12,563 men and women in 27 countries.
The data collection in Malaysia was done via phone interviews from Dec 12 to Jan 4, with respondents aged between 25 and 74.

Revealing the key findings here yesterday, Pfizer Malaysia medical advisor Dr Vicknesh Welluppillai said Malaysian men and women regarded getting and maintaining a hard erection as critical to a good and satisfying love life.

Consultant urologist Dr Peter Ng Eng Pin said there were four types of erection hardness.
“Grade 1 is when the penis is larger but not hard, Grade 2 when the penis is hard but not hard enough for penetration, Grade 3 is when the penis is hard enough for penetration but not completely hard and Grade 4 is when the penis is fully rigid.”

=)

here am I changing my mind again!!!

2006-06-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

yes, for the umpteenth time, I think I'm gonna (or rather I have actually) change my mind again.

Just went to have a look at my aunt's condo this evening (sorry no pics, was too estatic) in Pantai and I'm already fantasizing staying in there; where to park my car, howz the wall gonna look like!!!

I think the place is just brilliant, located just off the federal highway opposite the Telecom building, near to Midvalley and most of all, standing at the tip of the hill thus offering an expensive view of part PJ and part KL. Ok, its not tat I could see the valleys of downtown KL but then, its the next best to what I have experienced from Bukit Tunku.

And not to forget, someone who has been hugely influencing my decision lately, ie being CENTRAL is IMPORTANT!

So here am I contemplating day and night. Its only 700+ sq ft studio apartment, a far cry from my soon to be house of 1900+ sq ft. For these two years too, nothing has happened to kill my liking for condos. I think i still knew why I made the decision to get Nusaputra and it still does hold water till today; for the economic sense and monetary returns, but just like ordering the wrong number from the menu, therez alway a leeway to detour.

ok, guess i'd bored everyone by now, just needed an avenue to think aloud. Will read this weeks form now and probably months from and see whether it makes sense or not.

As good as it gets

2006-06-17T02:49:00.000+08:00

Everyone would have been very familiar with tele-marketeers by now, and would have share a fair amount of dislikes for these species of wage earners (sorry, i know its for a living too, but too bad, so is robbery).

So today's version was quite similar (they all starts the same) and being a lil bit good angin today, i decided to let her ramble on for a few more minutes before I activate my online eject-button. so this is how it went

TM : Hello Mr Chin, good morning to you.
Me : Hello, good morning
TM : Mr Chin, this is **** from **** Medical Centre
Me : Medical centre? ha... siapa pulak masuk hospital?
TM : You see Mr. Chin, you have been selected by our management to enjoy a free total body check-up which includes heart disease, liver bla-bla-bla and a few more.
Me : MEdical check-up? Wait a minute, how did you get my number?
TM : Oh, your friend has referred you to us and out of the three that was given, we have chosen you!
Me : (still not impressed at all) ... Oh me? Why me?
TM : Well you friend has been a regular customer with us for quite a long time ...
Me : REGULAR CUSTOMER? Since when do I have a friend who frequents a medical centre? not that its a petrol station!
TM : So Mr Chin would you like to confirm your appointment?
Me : Heck not man! Choy!!!

wtf has just happened? my gawd, so to all of you reading this, stand up and be counted! which of you la has been a regular at a medical center!?! This is so terrible ... never have I imagined or thought that one would go this far to get handcock on a dotted line. Haih ... come to think about it, I have another one at 10am tomorrow morning, True Fitness ... see how true they can get with me.

Topshop/Topman Deal of the Month

2006-06-15T13:33:00.000+08:00

Calling all Topshop/Topman junkies, herez your day! Bargains galore (no, this is not our means to fob off old stocks - you get THE LATEST SPRING/SUMMER COLLECTION on sale, straight from the seamstress table)!!! and if you're kiasu enough, book an appointment with the Style Advisor, and pre-book your sale items! Good eh?

p/s : but i guess to all ye 99.9% readers; chances are you might not be eligibile to soup up this annual offer. Sorry guys, only for students but if you're desperate and feel chided for not being a student anymore; go enrol in some typing class, sewing or cooking. Sorry, driving class students will NOT be entertained!

See ya!

I tried! Honest!

2006-06-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

I did ... really. But I guess its just NOT me ... wanna know y? It wasnt till about 5 minutes into watching the World Cup match that I realised I did not know what teams were playing.

Ok fine, its 06:34 into the match, I know its Tunisia, but still do not know what the heck KSA is, hmm... lets wait for the commentator to spit it out. Not quite a fair comment aint it? Hardly hear him saying anything bout KSA, therez loads of player's name though, sounds middle east, Saudi Arabia perhaps, but what does the letter K stands for? haih ...

08:00 ... nop, nothing yet.

09:00 ... zzzzz

10:00 ... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Step pull cha cha cha!!!

2006-06-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

Ah .. finally something that could distract my attention! Well, dancing has always been my archilles heel, totally not good at it. Heck i cant even coordinate my left and right so definitely i would look like a swaying coconut tree on the dance floor!, my gawd ... what a sight. Hence, i'd always approach a dance class with great caution, more than me withdrawing money in the middle of the night or eating curry chee cheong fun with my pearl white shirt on. Really, especially the early days where i'll drag myself into body jam only to sneak out at the burst of Bulleria.

but somehow, while in a class, i could finally let go of (partly if not all) my daily job drama and let my (short) hair down. Its kinda weird to make a fool of oneself bouncing from left to right with no connection to the tempo a.k.a beat or count but then again, whoz jugding?

I just realise over Juwita's NKRS class that i DO make a helluva noise too whilst in class ... a loud one at that! ha, coming from me, all those giggles and grins as i gaze into miscommunicated moves bouncing off the studio mirror. Which sometimes tempts me to video myself, save it for some f**ked-up day and laugh my ass off. Having said that, this is my therapy la kira. Some find joy in drinking, some find estacy in ... erm ... estacy, but its sure good enough to sweat it out in the midst of great company, laugh it out and sway like there'z no tomorrow.

So thats about today ... didnt realise that i'll like NIke Rockstar but I do now. Yes, its still way too fast but then, who cares!

and thats how the cookie crumble

2006-06-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

finally, i get the long dreaded news. Something which i hope was not true the last time i heard it. So how do I feel now? Awful, just plan awful really. Its like watever I did over the last 6 months just crumble and evporated right before my eyes as I sat there ... looking at the new structure. "Of course, we would choreographed the memo carefully..." wtf ... if it was really something good, why would one bother to choreograph the memo! Body jam gah?

Neway, i'm lost of words now... lost of direction too. Yes, am worried about my team's perception, worried bout how I'm gonna lift my chin up, worried how am I'm gonna go on from now onwards. but worry seems like the last thing i should do now, heck, i wasnt even shocked or dazed just now, so why should i feel that way now. Sigh ...

think twice before you make a decision, for the decision could make you crumble. Be humble and measure your own capabilities, the world's a ladder, a long one at that .... haih, nite.

Ah finally ...

2006-06-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

NO thanks to blogpsot or streamyx, no wait, it has got to be streamyx, I could hardly login to blogspot at all throughout the course of the week but now that I'm in, I'm blank and would have forgotten 99.9% of what i wanted to post, sigh, so Azyei, its not my fault!!!

Can believe its already June!!!

2006-06-01T00:50:00.000+08:00

hmm... funny, thought I have something to say bout this, forgot pulak.

Neway, its the middle of the year adi ... half year gone, half more to go. Wonder what you've been up to half of the year ya? I do ... but more importantly I knew where my taxes went ....

and of course, I feel so much 'safer' now knowing whoz exactly protecting the country. 21-gun salute!

Yawn ....

2006-05-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

I just realise something this week, that lately ... even on a Monday morning I could visualise what I will be doing exactly over the next few days and it feels as though my week is over even before it has started! Howz that possible!?! Geez, freaky right ... I mean, this could well mean that I'll only get to do the so much in 5 days, what about the rest of 99% of things that I have to do!?! No wonder I could hardly finish my store visits, check the last piece of pencil skirt Nu You magz owe me etc...

Yawn ... need a break. fast.

p/s : didnt mean to fall asleep in front of the tv after dinner so easily. Work has been that hectic and non-stop lately that its piling up faster than I could breath. Maybe I feel really good and at ease whenever I'm at your home; that for a brief moment, all things could just go away, burdens lifted and expectations gone ... that's all I ask for, a little respite, a minute leway to breakaway.. to breathe.

I had a bad day ...

2006-05-25T18:02:00.000+08:00

Kinda ironic that this song was used as the theme for this year's AI but anyway, it not about them now, its about me!

Been awfully sick since my big day on Saturday, geez, what a way to start the new year ha. Somehow all hell broke loose on monday (which reminds me of Andrew's Major 4 ... yes, I have it all) when my nose could beat the Three Gorges Dam ... flat(no, not for the size, for the flow la!) but what a wrong time it was! after all, Wednesday was the dateline to hand up my team's increment proposals. So like a gasping fish, I made my way to work on tuesday ... with a party of medicine with me. No problem, loads of stuffed nose and raging fever. So what’s the worst that could happen I thought.

Really .. what’s the worst that could happen? It’s just a cold, cough and fever I thought, not.

So, dutifully, I braved the Wednesday to get my annual increment proposal out. Not that it’s gonna get paid tomorrow but when therez 80 plus people’s expectation to meet and mouth to feed (hehe…), I’d better get it done by hook or by crook!

But I guess I’ve pushed myself way too much, by the time I reach the third or fourth worksheet, I could feel my world spinning and I was floating around!! (Aikkss... dont tell me those Giant caspers followed me here!) and could really feel as though my BP were shooting up. Sensing something’s not right, decided to make my way to the clinic on the 2nd floor. And boy did I made in on time and boy did I made a fool of myself in the clinic too!

I couldnt walk out of the clinic after that!!! really.... it was that embarassing that I had to lean on a wall and beg for a bed to lie on! So there was I cuddled in the surgery room moaning and groaning but not long. The doc decided to shut my mouth up before I scare the daylight out of her patients ... with what else but injection... on the bump! of course yours truly took it with a stride (ahem .. ahem). Ahhhh..... 3,2,1.....zzzzzzzzz

I believe I can fly

2006-05-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

Noticed this dragonfly lazing on my car aerial just now ... its just plain beautiful! And more so, it stuck with me from house to 7-11 and back! Now, either it's plain lazy or it has gotten itself hooked for good on my aerial. Ah... the wonders of nature. Which aptly reminded me of my primary school, or rather the padang of my school. It was so heavily frequented by dragon flies that we could have easily called the school SRJK St DragonFlies. It's like a whole colony of them, which at times could be really irritating as they hover in groups as if trying to figure out why there are so many humans around them, think dragonflies are the most kay-pohest insects ever!

No wonder this one stucked herself so long on my aerial...

Happy Birthday to my blog!!!

2006-05-20T02:24:00.000+08:00

Ahh .... I just couldnt believe it. Looks eerily like it was just yesterday that I posted my first blog and here am I sitting posting on its first anniversary! Wow ... one of the rarest moment that I could actually upkeep this blog to where it is today. Heck, not that its the most entertaining blog nor is it the most innnovative (yawn, I still dont know how to change the picture of the main header) but its a wonderful milestones to me; for someone who doesnt know a single thing about blogging! So herez a pitiful toast to Kyen! Hip hip ... hurray!!!

and of course, today is also yours truly personal birth milestone and unlike last year, have decided not to lament and whine of what today could bring and about the puzzles of life. Honestly, not in the best of mood now but heck, life's too short to worry! But I would really wanna appreciate friends and people who has made my year. You all know who you are! Thanks and luv ya!

More pics coming along later in the day ... but as for now, a Audi A4 please!

Dinner at Kanna Curry House @ A&W

My pride and joy ... PT II

2006-05-13T09:41:00.000+08:00

How time flies! I didn't quite realise that it has been two years since I signed my life away (and my Audit A4) to claim my rights to my house. But I guess it has been worth the while and the sleepless nights (wondering whether the developer will tar-pau over nite or not), though it comes with a huge responsibility and commitment now.

So ladies and gentlemen, people and elephant, fingers crossed, and I will be moving (FINALLY) into my house. Got a call and letter from the developer asking for utility deposits and a hint of the handover. Quite a big euphoria initially too and that got my mind into an extended processing session; thinking of what to buy! My gawd, moving house is just about money and nothing gets done if you've got nothing. Sigh ...

Anyway, to all ye self-proclaimed ID designers, help me out here! I'd just have to be realistic now so am realligning my priorities with regards to which part of the house I should do up first. Ah, a terrrific justification for my Kyen-Zen concept!

So here goes

1. The Master Bedroom a.k.a my room
Now you wouldn't go wrong doing up this room first right? I mean, after all it is THE room for all and sundries..hehehe, Ok Ok. I dont have much to spend on it now, just a basic set of queen size bed, wardrobe and more importantly, a proper cabinet for my AV stuffs!! Ideas please ...

Colour theme : Olive feature wall, light hint of yellow, light birch furniture. No elements of graphics .. just plain diarhhea of colours.

2. The Kitchen
I am chinese, no choice! OK now it might sound crazy but I'm going for white furniture (well, honestly, as if I'm gonna tai-chow every night!) but not gonna touch the tiles first. Will buy those nice jade-green studs later. Green and white, ah thats it, thats the one.

3. The Family hall
Ha, this is my dilemma now, I've got two halls to take care of. So am planning to do up the family hall first instead of the living hall downstairs. Just wanna get a nice small cabinet for the TV and stereo, no furnitiure here, just loads of comfortable over-sized beanis and pillows. Heck, someone even suggested I dump a queen sized bed there! (honestly, it's crude but works well!!!).

Colour scheme : hmm.. this is difficult, mostly because the walls are as tall as the rainforest in Taman Negara. Not quite sure how to deal with this, probablay a pelmet would help. eee...

4. The Living Room
Hmm...no more budget liao. Haha.. sad. Neway, already got my L-shaped sofa set, just need another cabinet.

and last but not least.. my favourite! The lights!!! ahhh... gotta go shop for 'em now!

Oh my

2006-05-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

Oh my gawd, thanks guys for your thoughts, appreciate it very much!!!

Looking back now, kinda think that I shouldn't have blogged about yesterday's drama after all ... guess I wasn't really in the right kind of mind to do anything sane but I just wanted to let it all out. Well, honestly, not only i DID NOT felt better after that, I had even caused ripples to filter through some of you!!! but hey ... it wasn't about YOU!!! haha... kidding guys (hm..at least I could still laughed at my own antics, not bad) Sorry, a friend of mine used to advise me to keep these sort of negative aura shit from polluting the already polluted airwaves of our minds (its like farting in a lift he says... unless you are retaliating) so thousand apologies guys, I'll make sure I insert snips from Dr. Phil's daily positive thinking dose ya next time.

Neway, updates. Just when I thought I should just take a rest for the long weekend, someone in the office would have to spill the bean and add sodium to the already terribly salted life of mine. So it is confirmed that they (those cunning non-cubicle staff) are planning to take one brand away from my portfolio. Ha, did I say they were cunning? Indeed they are man .... to them its just as easy as tossing out lollipops to tantrum throwing kids ... really ... speechless *shake head*.

Haih ... think I'm not making any sense now. better stop, time for some therapy pill...

How do I feel?

2006-05-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

This must be the most unbelievable blog yet, so i reckon you should not continue reading if you wanna maintain your sanity, really. but if your're just as aimless and blurred now, be my guest.

Just came from dinner and a long winded day, filled to the brim with meetings after meetings. But its not the meetings that has clouded my vision and senses now, its the god-dam hot-n-sour crab sauces. Ha, kidding.

I think i'm just being overtly worried; this being my long awaited confirmation month of my current job. How did I fared? I sucked major time man. What on earth was I thinking when I picked up this job? Was it just as an escape route from a bottomless pit of Melium? Or was a rational career change? I dunno ... just dunno. Chinese has got this saying that if your bottom is not big enough, dont ever try to sit on a big chair... or was the other way round? hmm.... dunno too.

Neway, i might just be thinking too much, worrying way too deep and over analysing the whole scenario. Its just plain scary now think what's gonna happen next week. I mean, what if I dont get my confirmation? Am I gonna be given the chance to go on? Will I be demoted? Will I be reassigned? aarrrghhh.... help. How come therez cold sweat in a 18c room? Will I be still able to pay for my house? how .....

my gawd, just couldnt believe my arse luck, just over a year ago, there was I thinking of what lies ahead with my (then) new-found job. Could believe that sense of deja-vu has returned so quickly. If only pay-checks come that fast too. ahhh... i'm just so not looking forward to next week. so not looking forward at all. If only I could turn back time, if only I could rewind and unwind. Sigh.

How do you feel 2day?

My resolution

2006-05-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

What a time to make resolution ha, well it is but then again this is something I have always do; especially in the month of May. Dont know why, more like a ritual already I guess and since this would be the first year every since I started my blog (more of this on its anniversary); I thought it would be a good milestone and signpost for this ailing memory of mine.

It works for me, I guess and in so far, I reckon I've been able (an lucky perhaps) to be able to meet my resolutions. Its more of a long term resolution too you see, not really something I wanna get or achieve next week but what I'd see myself gaining in the years to come.

But this time around, I'll be a bit materialistic first, following blog baru get talk bout more personal. ha...

So here goes the top 3

1. As i step nearer towards moving into my house, I wanna make my new house a HOME, a home that reflects me. Its quite a feat to have been staying in this little storeroom for eight years but I shouldnt be complaining too much. Its leaps and bound compared to where I was whilst in Uni. But I am so looking forward to moving into Nusaputra, maybe because this house do represent the fruit of my labour and a very strong resolution that I made way back in 1995;a dream which took me 10 years to realise and a proof that dream only comes through if we work hard for it.

2. My A4!!! Dont care ... give me 2 more years (2008).

ok ... so this is the RS4, no harm dreaming a bit higher right?

3. To be clearer and focused in life as to what I want to be. Its kinda not funny at all to be approaching to twilight of your 20s and not knowing fully what life is and what on earth am I doing here. Sure, I've tasted bitter and sweetness but this journey is sure one big puzzle.

It seems today....

2006-05-04T12:40:00.000+08:00

People blog i also blog

2006-05-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

Haih ... thats the problem when you're late ... be it at the buffet table, at the free-passes counter, getting into Midvalley at 1pm, period (ahem...)

Neway, honestly I wasnt too hyped or 'gung-ho' about the 01:02:03:04:05:06 incident, about it being a once in a century occurence or whether it will bring good/bad omen to the faithful observers. I remember being a kid, living in a small little town, housed in kampung style abode, I could get a clear view of the sky (thats how BIG my room window was ... and people are now paying millions of buckaroo for a floor-ceiling window, suckers) and of the wonders that I dont get now.

Really, to the insomniacs, the stars in the sky were god-sent for they are countless and those occasional n amazing meteor shower in the parade of green, yellow, blue and red. For me I cant imagine whats the fuzz over shooting stars cause I see so very often (compared to now ... which i like ZERO).

Fact is (at least for me), these occurences are part and parcel of our dimunitive being in this universe, there's loads of wonders that could amaze and enrich us if we only open our eyes and life live as it is.

now where's my Audi A4, caribbean cruise ...

Belching to the Key of E

2006-05-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

Hah.. what a weekend. Worked like a dog but feast like a king! haha ... yet another crab rendezvous with Jenny, Chooi Yin and Kenny; this time around at the infamous CB gang Ham-tan-chow-hai restaurant in Kepong. Never thought Kepong was THAT far from USJ! Crazee.

Neway, what was initially a non event dinner soon (yes, everyone was studiously skinning the crab)turned into a symphony of ochestra. See that women behind Jenny, make her the conductor and her hubby (hidden behind that women) the main tenor, wait a minute, was him a soprano.. watever. He was that inconsiderate! Goodness, have not heard nor experience one with such belching capabilities, I mean if it was any louder and choreographed; he could take broadway by storm in a cinch. Blimey china-man, be considerate when you dine in public (yes, five-foot way included).

Oh yea, Happy Mayday to all labourers, blue or white. May we slaver at unreasonable paychecks that some nimkampuks get and wonder when its our turn!

Bash

2006-04-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

Ha... how do i summarise a great week, geez. Well its been a rather hectic but enjoyable week, seemed like the days were moving like seconds than hour. First it was Brian's birthday celebration in Pelita Nasi Kandar and at Mcd's

Brian's birthday bash

Happy birthday Brain ... sorry bout the gift (or the lack of it), mean time, enjoy the elephant T-string!

and then followed by

CLEO'S 50 MOST ELIGIBLE BACHELORS 06 BASH, WESTIN HOTEL

check out those forks !!! my gawd!

definitely one of the highlights of our sponsorship for this month-long event, now lets just hope it translates in sales! See ya'll in 07!

A tribute to my alma matter

2006-04-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

ha... u just know one fine day you'd wake up with a tag in your face. Thanks windgedman. But this is different and what a coincidence it is as I had only a few days ago got in touch with a loooooooooong lost childhood-school mate and our chats were none other than the good-old school days and how we are now. Gosh its been ages!

Its been 12 years (stop counting my age perrrlease) since I last step foot in my starch-laden uniform into my alma matter, so here goes...

My school badge

the school!!

How many schools did you go to

Unlike some people, my schooling journey were plain jane, as straight as a ruler in terms of my progression from kindergarten (yes, ulu places have kindergarten!) to primary and secondary and yet unique. Unique in the sense that I actually attended two primary school at the same time, one in the morning/afternoon and one at night!!!! The night one being a Chinese-medium school which I was forced to attend by some far-sighted visionary who predicted China will be the next superpower, hence the need to know Mandarin. Hmm.. too bad dude, all forgotten liao. Bu huey chiang hwa-yee!

So I'd only attended two national schools which bore the same name, bit more than 5 minutes away from my house and yes ... both were not co-ed (no joke!) Which made it easy for a forgetful-jones like me to remember where the school is and what's the full version of my school rally.

All through our classes a voice is resounding
Promptly respond to your duty’s sweet call
Harken you all for the trumpet is sounding
Your Mater’s proclaiming her watchwords to all
Forward her children dear, ever with heart sincere
Render with joy to your Mater her due
All that is vile reject, Heaven will e’er protect
Sons of St. Anthony’s valiant and true
Charity unfeigned your motto upholding
Forward with courage in ways that are just
True to your standard be doing and daring
As faithful Anthonian in heaven your trust
(could well be the next bjam cooldown song eh? hehehe...)
Was I the studious nerd or the last minute hero
hmm.. tough one. Yes and NO! depends on the subject actually. Loved physics but loathed Chemistry. Enjoyed English classed but hated Arts and Chemistry. Ha, ok ok.. so I guess this answered the question.

But then again, I reckon studying has much been a major past-time-all-time high favourite, after all, there isnt much to distract one attention in a 20000 sqft town surrounded by palm trees and rubber plantations, is there?

Was I the class 'taiko' (troublemaker) or the teachers' pet?
hmm.. yes and no again! I'm such a chameleon back at home! If you run a check on me, chances are my blood-stained ruler is still stucked in the discipline-master dusty old 555 scrap book (yes, they do come in large sizes!) but being a shrewed prefect and having a floating halo does get me out of trouble more often than not. The most memorable misdeameanour that had my finger-prints were this incident where the TOP 2 Science class decided to revolt by throwing party during our school's canteen day. Whats the fuss u'd ask... that's because we actually locked access to our classes (hehe.. exclusive leh) and thrashing out loud party numbers. Well, if you still wanna know what happened next ... think standing in the middle of the school field, recess hour, up on the wooden chairs as waiting for out time to be crucifixed!

p/s : i was the class monitor!

What was the biggest rule I broke in school.
Big time ... fighting! Apart from the countless tabung uji that I have destroyed in the Chemistry lab (hated the subject you see) ... Yours truly actually has a history of raging-hormones-gone-awry in school. neway, fat chance if you'd expect some juicy gist in here!! Nop nop nop ... this i'm taking to the grave.

Three subjects I enjoyed the most
Physics ... physics and physics!!! Ah, i could almost swore that I thought I could well be an astronomer! No kidding, I mean I hallucinated and day dream so much about the law of psyhics and had this special bonds with those heavenly effects that I literally spent most of my time reading and reading about 'em.

Three teachers that inspired me
Puan Salmah - my Standard One class teacher, En Khairuddin - my Standard Six class teacher and Mrs Cyril Teoh - my secondary English teacher!!!

thanks dude for making me... you guys have been a bomb in making me who I am!!!

and to those whom I did not mention, you know what you have 'done' to me! 'thanks' for

1. knocking the Alam & Manusia book on my head .... at least now I'm more humane than you!

2. being such a man-bitch in Art class ... at least now I'm proud I scored better than you ace-pet student. Spending two hours in an art exam does make your rock looked better than mine!

3. introducing politics in class, at least now I know how humiliating it could be to get 46 votes when you're running for the state seats! and yes, never set Pendidikan Moral exam questions straight from the text book you moron and let your students wonder till the cow come home on who broke the window of Pak Ali's house...

and of course, Cikgu Salam, thanks for introducing Sex Education to young innnocent Form 1 students, you have revolutionise the teaching of History... now I could vividly remember how JWW Birch died in the river while bathing and the shape of Peninsular Malaysia with a cinch (content too graphic to be explained here!)

but finally, to those who had came and left no mark behind in my life, thanks too, at least I dont have to remember you too!

and to all Anthonians .. Class of 84-89, Class of 90-94, cheers!!!

a wonderfull weekend is ...

2006-04-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

no its not 100 PLUS!!! ... thats coconut flower wine a.k.a todi

and a platefull of hot & sour crab (with loads of sauce!!!)

hingga menjilat pinggan!!!

Rubbernecker

2006-04-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

Got this from the net... check this out, how true!!!

More than two-thirds of British drivers admit to slowing down to have "a good look" when they pass a road accident, and 10 per cent confess to having actually stopped for a better view (of the number?)!!!
The practice is revealed in a survey which also shows one in 20 motorists has had an accident after being distracted by another crash. A spokesman said: "This is a real eye-opener. It may be tempting to look at an accident, but it's vital for safety to concentrate on the road ahead."

Wonder whats the number like in KL ya? Neway, doesnt take a genius to sum up the number of nimkampuks along Federal Highway who are guilty of this. Me at least, could not be borthered at all unless the crash involves
1. A very nice Audi A4
2. A very nice Audi A4
3. A very nice Audi A4
ok.. sorry for that,cheap thrill

But then again, by virtue of NOT slowing down to take a quick peek, we could also potentially missed out the spilt second decision to help if there are grave danger whenever an accident has just occured. Me personally am guilty of this sometime last year after a late nite mamak session in USJ. Was heading back to my house when I notice a 3-4 car pile up, with a few cars parked along the kerbs. Little did I notice that one of my friend's car was involved in that accident and his car has been left stranded due to punctured tyre and crooked rim. Happily I drove by and back for my slumber... only months later while talking bout some accident stuffs that the friend of mine lamented bout his accident did I realised I was THERE at the accident scene and did nothing but drive through!!!

Shame on you Alvin!!!

Can one let go of true love?

2006-04-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

Tough question isnt it? I mean, lets start by trying to define love. Tough ha, so there you are. Lets not even go into the meaning of true...but then again, if I could, 'true' is both an euthopian dream and yet a constant state of being.

So to me, I reckon its near impossible to let go, to stop loving someone that you have found. And isnt it heart wrenching if fate has it that this life would not see this through.

Because of this, people say if you love someone but cant have them, then let him/her go and you will find the beauty of love. I guess so but the pain and sprain is also there to swallow.

So .... to my dear friend ... love as though there's no tomorrow, for only god knows how to bless and fill our heart with inner peace and joy. It might seemed unworthy and foolish, to wade the darkness of night, to brace the heaviest of shower and to supress the deepest longing ... but then again, who are we as outsider to judge if that means bringing a grin in the face of a beloved one.

gosh ... am i making sense??