and thats how the cookie crumble

finally, i get the long dreaded news. Something which i hope was not true the last time i heard it. So how do I feel now? Awful, just plan awful really. Its like watever I did over the last 6 months just crumble and evporated right before my eyes as I sat there ... looking at the new structure. "Of course, we would choreographed the memo carefully..." wtf ... if it was really something good, why would one bother to choreograph the memo! Body jam gah?

Neway, i'm lost of words now... lost of direction too. Yes, am worried about my team's perception, worried bout how I'm gonna lift my chin up, worried how am I'm gonna go on from now onwards. but worry seems like the last thing i should do now, heck, i wasnt even shocked or dazed just now, so why should i feel that way now. Sigh ...

think twice before you make a decision, for the decision could make you crumble. Be humble and measure your own capabilities, the world's a ladder, a long one at that .... haih, nite.