How fragile life is

Life's definitely full of surprises ... and its just plain amazing how much our life can change and turn at the blink of an eye.

Was just having a nice dinner meal with my friends when I received the call from my brother; nothing unusual safe for the part where he asked me where I was. My bro doesn't do that ... except for emergency cases so I know something is not right. True enough, he was breathing down Kesas at crazy speed with dad completely unconscious in the car. Mum was clutching dad and calling him aloud as they sieve through those aimless nimkampooks. Lesson to those idiots ... next time when cars zooms into view with their hazzards at neck breaking speed ... fuck off, there's life to be saved in there. Looking back, suddenly I felt so selfish and useless as it was just hour earlier that I wanted to leave Curve and go have dinner with my parents. I decided not; maybe because of the chat that I having with another friend .. or its just one of my being-alone moments. Whatever it was, it was really selfish.

It was raining heavily too .. kinda difficult to dash to SJMC in a Kancil but I guess when instinct kicks in .. nothing is impossible. As I got into the car, I could barely hold myself, not knowing what to expect or what to do. Tears just flowed freely ... even now. Suddenly the journey to SJMC seems to difficult and far but I made it there safely. The it became even heavier as I dash into the ER, saw mum and SIL. Mum was visibly shaken with her watery eyes and hands clutching a hankie .. my hearts just dropped seeing that. By then, dad was already in the ER, resting and thankfully has regain conscious .. but still ... Slowly i approached dad and held his hands ... telling him that I'm there. He responded with nod but nothing much else. Guess he was still in daze ... maybe something else. Moments passed, it was just the noises in the ER that filled the room. Softly I told dad that everything's gonna be alright. He will make it ...

Looking into his balding head and his wrinkled head ... It just dawn upon me how much dad has changed and aged, over the years and how much I have neglected his golden years. Guess save for weekends lunch or dinner, I dont really spend much time with him. Things gonna change from now onwards dad. Just as I was in the world of my own, dad asked me to massage his forehead, pretty heavy and dizzy apparently. I did, and it felt so good ... to his head I hope, and most importantly to his heart ... Guess it has been ages since I did this for him. Shame on me.

It was then I knew that he IS alright ...

Love you dad ... I'll be there for you.